Made it through the first week of work

Well, I made it through the first week. It wasn't the best week I have ever had but I expected that. The first day Zach would not even look at me when I got home. I was devastated. I never gave it a thought that he would be mad at me. The second day was a little better and the third day he was happy to see me. It was so hard to leave him each day. I would say that it will get better, but after talking to other parents I know it won't. Saturday when I went in his room after he woke up, he had a huge grin on his face and he said "mom, mom, mom". So, I think he was excited to see me. He is doing so well. He is picking up words left and right. He makes the cutest faces. I will have to get pictures of them and post them here. Saturday he got his first haircut with Aunt Lois. He was so good for her.

Well, I guess that is all for now. I am starting another week at work. Nothing against my job, but I wish I didn't have to work. Talk to you soon!

I'm Very Sad Tonight!

See this sweet little face, I have to leave it tomorrow and go back to work. I don't know how I am going to do it. I held him for an hour tonight while he slept and just looked at him and cried. The past five weeks have gone by way to fast. I know I am just being a big baby and everyone has had to go through this, but I can't help it. I finally got my dream and now I have to go to work (so that little dream can eat and live). I know he will have loads of fun with Grandma though! Grandma might get tired of me calling and saying "what's he doing now?" I'm sure she won't mind. We are just going to have to make the most out of the evenings and weekends. And then there's the holidays to look forward to! :)

I love you my sweet little sunshine! Mommy will be home after 4 each day to play!

First Family Photo

We had our first family photos taken. I think they turned out pretty good even though Zach didn't want to cooperate. There is nothing better than seeing that little grin on my little mans face.

He still seems so content and happy here. That's just awesome. He has been really sick this week though. Today was the first day he was a little like himself and didn't have a fever. I even had him giggling! It's so hard when a little one is sick and can't tell you what is wrong. But I am very happy he is getting better.

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Good Medical News

Zach's doctor's office called today. All the blood work, chest x-rays and other tests that they ran all came back normal. Praise the Lord everything is great with him! The other good news is that he slept 11 hours last night and momma finally got some sleep!! It doesn't sound like big news to some, but those of you that have little ones, it is HUGE news!! Thanks for all your prayers and well wishes!!

A Poem I found...

Before I was a Mom


Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a MomI cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Spit on. Chewed on Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night..

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests. Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Doctor's Appointment

Here are a couple pictures of Zach in his new pool. He loves it! I think he would still be in it several hours later if I would let him.

I took him to the doctor today. She said he seems to be doing very well. He weighs 21 pounds and is 30 inches tall. He is in the twenty five percentile, but proportioned right. She listened closely to his heart and said that she did not hear a heart murmur at all! Praise the Lord for that!! He got a couple of shots and then they had me hold him down while they took a tube of blood. That was aweful. He was crying and looking right in to my eyes. It broke my heart. They are going to run a bunch of tests to make sure everything is OK with him. We go for a chest x-ray tomorrow morning. Dr. Karen was wonderful! She said he looks good and is right where he needs to be as far as learning, eating, etc. I am so happy and relieved that the appointment is over and went well. They will call me with the other results.

I am truly blessed!

Home for over a week!

Well, we have been home for over a week and it is wonderful! Everyone keeps asking if it is everything I imagined. My answer to that is "everything and more". Even though I am not getting much sleep, I am still enjoying it. Zach has so much personality! Most days when he wakes up he is smiling and will giggle easily. He is right beside me now trying to help me type. I do have to brag on him. This past weekend he started saying "thank you". I have a polite son!! He is always trying to give someone a toy or his bottle and we always say thank you. I guess he picked it up. He is still yelling momma when I am in the other room (of course I still love that). I waited so long to hear that. Everyone says eventually I will wish he didn't say it, but for now I am loving it!! Zach goes to the doctor Monday for his first visit. They will do several tests on him to make sure everything is OK. I can't imagine anything being wrong. He looks great, is happy and has a healthy appetite.

Well, Zach wants to play so I will go for now. I will type more later.